Winds of Change

“People are always saying that change is a good thing. But all they’re really saying is that something you didn’t want to happen at all…has happened. Soon, it’ll be just a memory. But the truth is…I’m heartbroken. I feel as if a part of me has died…and no one can ever make it right.” – Kathleen Kelly (You’ve Got Mail)

At this very moment in history, I’m sitting in the comfy, white leather recliner, in comfy boxer shorts and a tshirt, on a cool Friday evening, watching Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan in “You’ve Got Mail.” Love their playful, witty, and sometimes biting banter.

Today has been such an emotional day for me – the realization that I have only a WEEK left before I’m back in Dallas – has made me cry tears inside and out. When I got home from having coffee with Natalia, Michal looked at me from her perch by the window and said, “Are you okay? You look distressed.” I went over to her and gave her a huge, long hug and as I did big tears welled up in my eyes and I clung to her more tightly. She is my ‘Elinor’ (Sense and Sensibility). Now that the time has come for me to leave D.C., I find myself very relunctant to go for several reasons.

I will now list some of those reasons. One, I will miss my awesome roomie that God blessed me with – I might be lost without her. Michal has made these three months so amazingly full of fun – great girl dates and memories – I have never laughed so much and so hard in my life. She brings such sunshine and sense into my world. I will also miss the friends I have made here. Plus, I have lived here for three months straight and this place has changed me so much and become a part of me. I have gotten into this routine – however crazy it may have been. I have enjoyed my internship at The Washington Times.

There is so much to be done when I return: my last semester of classes at SMU, friends to catch up with, finding a place to live, getting a temporary job/internship, looking for a job after graduation, etc. These are some crazy years of change. It’s sort of scary to go home to all that. While Dallas feels like a faint, distant memory, this summer is already beginning to feel so surreal. Thank goodness for blogs!

In class today we watched a DVD on Ronald Reagan and I fell in love. I have always heard of him, how great he was, and even have a signed letter from him congratulating my parents on my birth in 1988. Until I saw this video I didn’t realize how great a man he actually was and my admiration and respect for him instantly grew a hundred-fold. President Reagan wrote his own speeches and had such a charisma and compassion for people. I got all emotional and tears rolled down my cheeks as I watched the video that followed and summed up his presidency.

It is hard to let go. What a wild roller coaster ride this summer has been, with a few episodes of whiplash. God has been awesome through it all. This will be one of my last blogs from D.C., if not the last one.

Peace out,
Rachel Duke


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